I have really tried not to think about it. Yet it is coming. I don’t want it to come. Yet friends keep reminding me. I wish it would just go away. Yet I receive a letter in the mail to say I am being thought about during it.
MOTHER’S DAY!!
Mother’s Day is coming whether I want it to or not. It is supposed to be a time of celebration for being a mother. Our Mothers, Grandmothers, Great-Grandmothers, and sometimes even Great-Great-Grandmothers are all remember this day and celebrated as the ones we love.
Then there are those that are the mothers, grandmothers, great-grandmothers, and great-great-grandmothers where it is our special day. It is the day created because we have the privilege of being mothers.
Then there are those mothers like myself that all this day will bring is utter sadness. It will not be a day of joy and celebration because my daughter was ripped from me. I am no longer a mother here on this earth. Yes, I am a mother of a child but that child is no here on this earth. She is up in heaven. Mari is gone.
All I get to do this day is remember that I no longer have my precious baby girl here on this earth with me. She is gone and yet I get the bittersweet memories of her being her just last year to now having her gone for this year. I wish it would just go away.
I know that Mother’s Day is a special day for mothers but I just wish it would not come this year. I probably wish it would permanently go away but no matter how much wishing I do I know it will continue to come every year anyway.
I miss you MarMar. I love you baby girl.
Then there are those that are the mothers, grandmothers, great-grandmothers, and great-great-grandmothers where it is our special day. It is the day created because we have the privilege of being mothers.
Then there are those mothers like myself that all this day will bring is utter sadness. It will not be a day of joy and celebration because my daughter was ripped from me. I am no longer a mother here on this earth. Yes, I am a mother of a child but that child is no here on this earth. She is up in heaven. Mari is gone.
All I get to do this day is remember that I no longer have my precious baby girl here on this earth with me. She is gone and yet I get the bittersweet memories of her being her just last year to now having her gone for this year. I wish it would just go away.
I know that Mother’s Day is a special day for mothers but I just wish it would not come this year. I probably wish it would permanently go away but no matter how much wishing I do I know it will continue to come every year anyway.
I miss you MarMar. I love you baby girl.
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