Memories...

The Memories, they run so deep. They are so dear. What would we do in this life if we didn’t have the memories of those that we loved and then lost. I think we would be lost. There would be this black hole that would just suck us in. But then again, if we didn’t have memories, there would nothing to be missed. We would never understand or know what we were missing. The memories we have are so bitter sweet. We know that without the memories it might be easier. We know without the memories we could just continue to live each and every day without out the pain, the hurt, the utter despair of missing the one we love so much, so entirely. The memories give us what we need to be able to live each day. The memories help us to never forget the one we love. The memories help us to know that she will live on.

Memories help us to remember when mommy was sitting in the family room watching TV and mommy could hear the pitter patter of footsteps dancing on the roof because she had snuck out of the house through mommy and daddy’s bedroom window again. Memories help us to remember how she opened the family room window, then the screen, to get out of the house so that she could go dancing in the street and having the time of her life. Memories help us to remember her watching “Jonah, A Veggie Tales Movie” or “Cars” or “Happy Feet” or Dora the Explorer or The Backyardigans or so many others on the TV and just flapping her arms like crazy because she was so incredibly excited to be seeing one of her all time favorite shows again. Memories help us to remember how she would say “Bear” when mommy or daddy or both were putting her to bed because she had to have her special bear to sleep with to go to bed. Memories help us to remember all her art work on mommy and daddy’s white walls all over the house because she had gotten in to the magic marks yet one more time because all she liked to do is draw. Memories help us to remember “Lake Mari” when she decided that she needed to play in the bathroom sink and then the sink would overflow because there was a problem with the piping for the sink. Memories helps us to remember how instead of the typical 10 to 15 minutes it might take a family to get family pictures done that instead it would take an hour so we could get a beautiful family picture taken and those precious moments reserved on paper for a lifetime.

Memories help us to remember her smile. Her laugh. Her singing. Her just EVERYTHING. What would we do without the memories. I just sit here missing her so and looking at her picture on our fireplace mantel but so happy to be living the rest of my life with her in my heart and in my memories.

Memories, they so last a lifetime.