It amazes me how one can mess up time when one does not want time to move forward anyways. Last month I thought Mari had been gone 8 months. I even wrote about it. Then when it was getting closer to this month mark of her being gone, I started to think about it. There should only be 3 months until she has been gone for one year, but when I started to count there were 4 months. The math just did not add up. So last month she had actually only been gone for 7 months.
Why does it feel like time is flying by yet at the same time, time seems to be standing still. I mean, is that even possible. It feels that way.
I think at some point in everyone’s life we have all either talked about or wished we could invent a time machine. Mine would take me back to about a month before Mari got sick. To spend every waking moment I could with her before she got sick. I think I would even try to somehow prevent her from getting sick. I know it is not possible but I so wish it could happen anyway.
We love you baby girl and just know that everyone misses you. You were such a light in so many people’s lives. You were your mommy’s everything and she has just not been whole since you have been gone. I love you and will see you again someday when it is our time to be together again.
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Letting go
12 years ago
